[ It is ... very difficult to truly see it, when from a young age you have seen with wonder how much others can do, and failed in the simplest task, or needed so much practice and focus and aid as to be next to failing - and even more so when growing up next to someone so very talented in the exact same things where you fail. And yet more when the other person dearest to your heart is also so gifted and capable.

When you have to keep begging aid while being able to offer so little of it back.

He greatly appreciates her reassurance and support, beyond what words can express. But he can't close his eyes to the reality of his own life. Not even to reassure her. ]

I... more or less surrendered my right to censure them myself, although I would have expected better of Emet-Selch. [ Yes, he knows he can call him Hades when it's the two of them. No, he doesn't want to get into the habit, other than some certain situations of intimacy, to make sure he doesn't slip easily. The title deserves respect, and he is going to make sure he gives it. Ribbing and actual criticisms notwithstanding.

His breath catches slightly, fingers twitching against her before they relax again. ]

Were you there while it was happening? Did it affect you, as well?